Sunday, April 24, 2011

Happy Easter - or NOT

Today is Easter. And we are all alone, in our own houses. And it SUCKS. So we're going to pretend it's not, and celebrate it later in the week!!!!

It's also my birthday weekend and I've been enjoying every minute of it. Except today. It started on Friday when Ashley & I packed a picnic, packed up baby boy, and headed for the lake at UNR. We also brought bread --- to feed the ducks, even though there were signs everywhere that said "DO NOT FEED THE DUCKS." That day, we felt that rule was meant for breaking and totally wasn't meant for us.

Since before Charleston was born, I've wanted to feed the ducks with him. That's all I wanted for my birthday this year. They've been on "lockdown" for almost 6 months, and we broke that rule on Friday for nana's birthday!!!! We had an absolute blast. Charleston loved it, staring and staring more at the ducks eating the bread that he and little mama threw to them. They even came up to his stroller on our way out so he got to see them close up!!!! I got pictures, but they're on my camera at Ashley's house, so I'll post them later this week. It was amazing to see Charleston study the ducks and make his sounds that told us he was having fun. But even more amazing and beautiful for me, was to see my daughter and the joy in her eyes. She didn't stop smiling; she laughed out loud; she was filled with happiness and was having a blast!!!! It's been a long, long, llllllllooooooooooonnnnnnnnngggggggggggg time since I've seen that, and it filled my heart. We didn't think we'd ever get to feed the ducks with him. We didn't think we'd get to have a picnic like that. And I certainly didn't think I'd get to celebrate this birthday with him. It was was simply amazing and we made a memory that I'll never ever ever forget.

Friday afternoon my son, BJ, drove up for the weekend!!!! We had a blast, but there was certainly something missing.......and that was Ashley. Friday we walked to my local wine bar and he **made** me drink two martinis (oh, so yummy). Then we came home and fixed dinner and visited. I never get to do that with him anymore, and it was wonderful. Just me and my boy. But not Ashley.

Saturday he studied, but then took me to Home Depot and bought me shelving and organizational stuff for my garage that he would only think about (since he's a guy & I'm not)........came home & he put it all up! I have a project ahead of me, but I sure appreciated him doing it. Ashley gave me a toolbox with pink tools!!!! Woohooooooooooooo I'm set. Then last night, he and I dropped dinner off to Ash & Cam, then went to dinner ourselves and had massages afterwards. Awesome.

But then this morning came, and he had to leave. Cry, cry, cry, after I closed the door behind him. Because here's the part that SUCKS. Because he's been around germs this past week, he brought them here. So now I can't be around the baby for several days for fear of bringing the germs to him. So now I'm alone for Easter and my birthday tomorrow, and Ashley and Cash are alone at their house for Easter because Cameron is working. But I wouldn't trade this weekend for anything, because I got to spend time with my boy who I love with all my heart. Really good time. Talks. Tears. Laughter. And it was good. But this is life with SMA.

I hate SMA. So Happy Easter to all of you out there that are celebrating. Me? I'm headed for the garage to put things on my new shelves!!!! And our Easter will be next week, and that's ok. Cuz I got to spend time with my boy, and that doesn't happen very often.